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I feel like most people don't think it through. Not a novel idea I suppose but I can bet you that when you read that sentence you agreed but mentally excluded yourself from the aforementioned ‘most’. I think things through you tell yourself. I'm different. Of course you are.

We think things. We feel things. And we generally stop there. Oh I stubbed my toe. I'm hurt. My toe is throbbing. This sucks. And then we go about our day. But what if we asked ourselves why we stubbed our toe. Why do we have an adverse reaction to stubbing our toe. Is there a way through which I can orient my life to minimize toe stubbing? Maybe I can get rid of sharp edges in my home. Maybe I can be more aware of my personal space and surroundings. By now it should be obvious we're not really talking about toes or physical pain but rather the more mundane perhaps emotional inconveniences that we can allow ourselves to be swallowed up in.

Furthermore, most times we don't really want what we think we want. To figure out exactly what it is we do want we have to... think it through. In my personal life I thought I wanted to be rich and famous. Because I thought that would allow me to live on my own terms and help the people who mean the most to me. But then I thought about it for a while. I looked around at those who came before me and somewhere along the journey I realized I didn't want any of that at all. What I really wanted was the end goal. Living on my own terms, being able to influence and inspire the next generation and provide support for those who mean the most to me. There's a lot of ways to do that. Sure, being rich and famous is one of them but it's not even the most effective out of my available options. Especially after all that Diddy stuff came out but that's an ENTIRELY different conversation

Sometimes you just need to sit with yourself and think it through. Or maybe feel it through. I'm feeling nervous. Why am I feeling nervous. Because xyz. Okay well I suppose I am just going to be sitting in this nervous feeling for a while. And then it passes. As opposed to. I'm nervous. Oh no. That must mean there's a threat. Where's the threat? Oh no I can't find the threat. What if the threat knows I don't know where it is?? Omg am I going to die??? And then you explode. You don't want to explode and I certainly don't want you to explode so instead of doing whatever the heck that was…

/stay/wayvy/