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Sometimes you might not know why you doing something frfr. Like you might think you know why you doing… but you ain’t know frfr.

Take me for example. I thought that I was making wayvy to help other people. I saw those in need, or I guess who i thought was “in need" and did everything i could in my power to “help". lo and behold, i was actually the one in need. and i was in a way creating my own support structure for moments like the one I'm about to describe. when i was hospitalized (not unlike kanye omari west but not like Kanye yfm).

You can only go so far on your own strength. like it or not, humans were created to be in communion with each other. we were created to support each other and to be with each other. loneliness can be a death sentence as i had to learn the hard way. paranoia can creep in, niggas can not know where to turn or what to do and niggas can end up in a very very vulnerable situation without really realizing you were careening off a cliff at 175 mph.

Okay so enough beating around the bush. i got picked up by the cops and placed in a mental institution. i was there for like two weeks and while i was away wayvy helped my family ensure that they didn’t completely fuck me over and lose me in the system. It is an unfortunate truth that the system we exist in largely doesn’t exist anymore, in that it doesn't really do what it says it does. It makes bold broad claims of helping and healing when its just extracting and executing. I am so grateful to everyone around me who helps keep me grounded and ensure that i am able to do the work that i feel called to. and wayvy was the vehicle for this realization.

Experiences like this can really make or break someone. But more importantly, it tests the relationships around us. Who can understand? Who wants to? Who is trying to. Many times we are caught up in experiencing the effects of our own choices we ignore how these choices can impact the people around us. You can't exactly sustain and build a community organization if you can't support yourself, y'know? Anyway, if you feel like the walls are closing in, you have nowhere to turn and you're about to crash out… talk to someone. Reach out. and don't be cryptic. Tell the person you trust the most in the world that you need them. And you may do something you regret without some sort of intervention and help. The people around you probably love you more than you realize. So ask them to show you. Lovingly and patiently. If they can’t, don't hold it against them. Maybe they're experiencing something similar to what you're going through too. Reach out anyway. Ask them how they are. Maybe its not about giving and receiving, but circulating. Merry Christmas y'all. stay wayvy.